Where I have been(and why I was away)

I used to be really active on this website. Whenever something big happened in my life, I would write about it on my blog and whenever I drew something, I would post it here, but whenever I looked at other people’s more developed websites, I would be jealous. I also wanted to use this place to be a place I can vent about my problems. The truth is, the internet is not a place like that. Everything I post has the potential to be misunderstood and mocked.

To be honest, I don’t know if I will continue working on this place. I am extremely burnt out from everything. I don’t have the motivation to do anything but mindlessly scroll on youtube and tumblr. I had a real passion for website building last year, but being unemployed just tired me out. Whenever I want to learn more about html and css, I remember I can learn more useful skills like excel or powerpoint and I get so lazy. I want someone to motivate me and save me from this slump. I want to be satisfied.

I know this entry seems really negative, but it is what it is. I don’t know if I will ever gather enough motivation to get things done, because they just look too difficult and and I am too lazy. Back when I was active, I was mentally unstable, but I actually had things that made me interested. Now, I am laying on my bed and writing this. Maybe one day, I will return to this website again.